“Thank you Jesus
Even when you see us just as we are-
Fragile and frail and
So far from who we want to be....”
Nicole Nordeman
Today was Communion at church, and it was....amazing. Communion never really hit me until today. I mean, I understood what the concept, and it meant for me, as a Christian, but today was just amazing. I can’t really even describe it- as if my finite vocabulary could even begin to describe how God’s infinite mercies and grace became such an amazing reality. We sang two hymns during Communion (“Were you There? ” and “It’s as Close as the Mention of His Name)- a capella- which we have never done before. I was just sitting in my pew contemplating the death and amazing resurrection of my Messiah, when it hit me. Christ died for me. A perfect, holy, man sacrificed His own life (barely beginning) so that I would be able to have peace and joy (not necessarily happiness) now on earth, and eternal life with Him in heaven for..ever! Isn’t that amazing? I don’t think my mind can fully comprehend the depths of that....wow....
And what make me so upset, is after that amazing experience today in church, I go right back to messing up my relationship with God by sinning. My sins hurt my God, those I love....and me. Why I keep running back to my selfish, fleshly desires, I will never ever understand. Paul talks about this so often, that we will ALWAYS have this struggle- between our flesh and our spirit- until the day we die or until the blessed day we see the face of our Savior. It’s just so frustrating. BUT....the happy ending to this woeful tale is that the mercies of God ARE new every single morning. He promises that if we just confess our sins, He IS faithful and just to forgive us of them and cleanse us from ALL (not some, ALL) unrighteousness (1 John 1:9)! That is an indescribable comfort, to know that no matter how much I fall flat on my face, how many times I turn away or how many times I take more steps back in my walk than I do forward- He is still there, and I am always forgiven!
“I would understand if You were out of patience
And I would understand if I were out of chances,
But Your mercies are new every morning!...
Every day it’s true, You make all your mercies new!” - Nicole Nordeman
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