And so it begins.....

I feel like my life is really starting tomorrow. I start my new job as the Director of Education tomorrow, and I really feel that finally, FINALLY life is beginning. But what I fail to realize is that life has already started for me. It didn't end when Brad and I separated, or even when we got divorced (even if it felt like it). It has been and is continuing to be woven and spun, like a beautiful blanket- full of knots and loose strings and chaos on one side, but perfectly stitched and woven on the other side.

For so long I've felt like all I could see was the knotty side of my life- chaos, hurt, pain. But now, almost 5 months later, I feel that I am beginning to heal, to move on, to be able to talk about what happened, and to see bits and pieces of God's handiwork in the nightmare of the past year and a half.

I am excited. I am fearful. I am full of praise, and yet full of doubt. And so it begins, a new chapter. It has always been and always will be a handiwork of God's grace and mercy.