mer's journey

Tonight I was wondering if I made the right decision turning down the nanny job in Florida. The money, the travelling, even the kids were tugging on my heart.....I honestly thought that job would fill the great chasm in my heart that divorcing Brad created.

As I was spending some time in prayer and worship, the Lord reminded I am where He has me for a reason- for the freedom to travel, to minister. God has graciously taken away my husband and an amazing job to enable me to give all of what is left of myself. What Satan has taken away and destroyed- the "old" Meredith, my marriage, my life- God has turned into beauty. He has filled me up. He has allowed me to be broken down, cast down and destroyed so that HE could abide in me, so that He could take the empty vessel of my life, fill it and use it for His righteousness, His honor and His glory. Amen!

Sara Groves (http://www.saragroves.com/saragroves/) inspired me by what she wrote on her website:

"The phrase ‘social justice’ can be loaded. To some people it is a political or a liberal conversation, but to me, it is a Kingdom conversation. There are people behind these stories and statistics, and God’s heart for justice burns on their behalf. I wanted to write songs that drew attention to the people who know God deeply because of their suffering. There is a commonality in all of these friends, and that is the perseverance of hope.”

That is exactly where my heart is. I want my heart to burn for the justice of the hurting and the oppressed. I want to make a difference!

"The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me, Because the LORD has anointed me To bring good news to the afflicted; He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, To proclaim liberty to captives And freedom to prisoners; to proclaim the favorable year of the LORD And the day of vengeance of our God; To comfort all who mourn, to grant those who mourn {in} Zion, Giving them a garland instead of ashes, The oil of gladness instead of mourning, The mantle of praise instead of a spirit of fainting. So they will be called oaks of righteousness, The planting of the LORD, that He may be glorified." ~Isaiah 61:1-3 NASB