Reflections

Tonight, I am lonely.



It has been a long time since I felt this much of an ache in my soul.



It is on nights like these that I am intensely aware of my achingly empty ring finger, or my bed that is large enough for two, but only sleeps one. It is on nights like these that I can be surrounded by people, by family, by friends, and yet still feel so....alone.



I long for marriage on these days. I long for companionship, for someone to share inside jokes with, to share my toothbrush holder with, someone whose laugh I have memorized and whose silly idiosincracies I have come to cherish.


I am praying for my future husband, whomever he may be, whenever the Lord finds it good to bring him into my life. If ever the Lord finds it good. I pray even more that I might find contentment where He has me, exactly where He has me.



It is times like these that I need to remind myself that husbands fail, and love waxes and wanes as the moon, but that my Savior has proven Himself to be faithful, proven Himself to be good and promised to be the husband that I am longing for. My sole satisfaction, contentment, joy should be found in Him alone now, and later, single or married.